One of my mother's best and oldest friends is quickly and painfully deteriorating from pancreatic cancer. Lois has 7 children. Six boys, one girl. Lois has somewhere on the order of 25 grandchildren - from toddler to teen. Two of Lois' sons were my first babysitters. Lois will die any minute, which is horrible. But she will be surrounded by approximately 40 *immediate* family members whose lives she touched every day -- her children and their children and their partners in childrening, and that is beautiful.
Forty loved ones. Imagine counting all those blessings as you drift off forever.
I can count mine on a peace sign.
Apparently I have some work to do.